A Life in Words

Ringing in your ears... Your eyes crack open and you look around trying to make up your mind where the annoying unwelcome sound is coming from. You close your eyes hard and hold them closed for a while hoping that keeping them there will wash away any of the falsehoods that might be floating around your mind. But when you actually open them you realize that annoying sound is still going off. You turn to your lamp trying to lighten the room as you realize the sound is just your alarm. You hit the snooze button which silences the killer sound for a brief moment or two. You slide your hands to your face and try to wipe away the sleep and unconsciousness that is making the room tilt just a bit. You slide your body to the side of your bed as you sit up trying to get into the normal routine of your day. You take a deep breath realizing that the dreams are over and life has started once again. Always laughing to yourself as you remember just what world you had come from and battles you were fighting.. As the breath of your long overdue sigh starts to exhale from your chest you lean over to your cell phone as your mind remembers just what you do every morning. Your heart starts to beat more aggressively and your palms start to sweat just a bit. Your hair feels extra itchy and your skin starts to crawl. As your finger tips grip the edges of the portal to your life you try to swallow the lump that is growing in the back of your throat. You look at the green notification light that usually blinks to let you know somethings there. But alas there is no friendly lighting show. But you tell yourself that there have been times before that there was no notification but behind that blackened screen awaited a message from your long lost heart. So you smile hoping to prove the phone wrong once more. Sliding your fingers across the screen to wake up your sleeping friend to be sadly informed that nothing had come in that night. No simple hello or was thinking about you. You don't sigh with disappointment because of anger or frustration but more so that there was no proof that her heart has mirrored yours. Another morning that will start of with an uncertain emotion. And will keep your mind and heart on her for the rest of these simple 24 hours...