What I want... Is to hold you again without worrying of its right or wrong, forward or timid,aggressive or submissive. I just want to hold you again and just think how much I love you and that I never want to let go.

Sometimes I don't know if it is s good or bad thing when people read your thoughts and not only don't comment. But don't even acknowledge them. It might just be a journaling kinda night. Need to remember that I'm in it for him and he's got my back.

Do the best you can. Where you are.
How can you help maximize someone's god given potential.
For the people who know me the best should respect me the most.

Courage is the absence of fear. Goodness isn't the absence of badness.

As your father. If god is not disciplining you you may not be his..

There is a difference in love and unconditional love...

One person can easily be replaced. But the attitude of the group cannot easily be changed. Be secure in your place and know that your body can be replaced amongst the crowd but what you bring that god gave you to bring cannot. Know your worth with your life and god. And then trust it.

The question is do we run away from pain or do we endure till the pain is gone. Do we give up or persevere? Do we yield to the possibility of failure or accelerate to the possibility of success. I think it comes down to the path that you're on... Do you trust your path? Do you have faith in your path? and is your path worth risking for? Here I stand, about midway. Just far enough to be deep enough to hurt but shallow enough to think you can get out. That crucial crossroads that comes up and makes you remember every verse, every lesson, ever message that you have heard that could be related in the recent past. You heart swims with all the positive notes of persevere and be strong in your crossroads, in the challenges that come up. But then you slouch back down when remembering all of the messages telling you to guard your heart. All the messages that reminded you that God is your focus and you live for him, not you or anyone else. All those messages that said to be calm and trust that God will provide, that God will dazzle you in the moments you didn't think could even carry a dim shine.

Well in the end I trust my path... And the end of my path is sure worth risking for. And how do I trust this??? Because I can see her face and know that no matter what, no matter the outcome I can say that I trusted every inch of myself and what I was hearing from God... and that No Matter what God has me in his hands... And that is the comfort that I need... I am protected... Isaiah 41:10, Isaiah 44:21, 1 Corinthians 10:13, Corinthians 13:7, 1 John 4:18

I worry when I dont need to... My mind races when it should be still. My heart starts to run when it should beat soft. Take a deep breath and smile because through it all Jesus has me in his arms and he is whispering beautiful thoughts into my ear. It may not be her, it may not be now, but I know it will be something and I know you have it well under control. You have the wheel sir... and I should feel at ease with that fact...

Fear can choke. It can slide up your body like cold hands running for your neck. You allow this eerie happening at first because it is explainable to your senses. Your emotions standing in shock as this worry grips your heart. It continues to slide reaching its frigged claws around you and slowly squeezing until you feel it inside your chest as your lungs quietly stop working. Your heart starts to beat faster and your chest seems to cave in as your mind races with what ever is standing in front of you. And then all at once you cannot move. You cannot think of anything other than the creepy thing that stands in front of you. Your eyes swell with tears and your hands begin to shake. Breathing becomes an improbable task and your body becomes unresponsive.