My thoughts for this evening G... I am scared out of my mind about praying to you in front of everyone at youth next week. I know I am a public speaker and all but this is different than speaking. This is me, sharing my heart for you in front of other people... Not so assuring. I don't know if it scares me to think that they might not like my ideas, that they might not like my thoughts or where I stand, I don't know if its just a random uncomfortableness or if I'm just dramatic... But sure enough when i think about doing it in front of anyone its pretty terrifying. But none the less I had a thought the other day when I was talking to P. Frank.... I said that I knew with out a doubt from times that have passed when I get up there you give me the shakes to get me going and the strength to get me through. I think when I said that a feeling of amazement washed over me. No matter what you seem to always give me the strength to push through. I have not always been right there with the thank you or the you rock but deep down I always tipped my heart to you... You really do know how to give me what I need right when I need it. I wonder if that timing is to give me a sense of satisfaction while giving you the glory and praise for a job well done... I wonder if its a lesson every time to learn to lean on you... To go as far as I can go and not worry about the extra little step because I know you will be there... I wonder if you just rock that way and there really doesn't need to be an explanation... I think I like all three put together there... yea... Well lets just say you rock and leave it at that... I think I could go on and on tonight but I wont... See you in my dreams... OH YEA, thanks for the towels... I really did need them!!!
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