Those who dance are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music. Those who cannot feel the emotion think the action is overdone... Those who cannot feel the warmth of the touch think the feeling is just too strong..

I do wonder if what I wish came true would make things more enjoyable in life... I wonder if people dealing with their own lives more so than helping in others would make it easier... I wonder if I could sit here and wish for that and when it comes true would I be happy for the total control over my own path... Would I be happy to sit here with God and deal with the stones and curves of my lifes road... Would I be able to look at God and say my bad at the end of a wrong turn and not regret having someone in the back seat telling you how to drive...

Wednesday - I think today I have been looking forward to what is forward. I cant wait to see what God has planned if the ride has been as fun as it has been thus far...

Love

Love is nothing more than a temporary maddness. It is not doves flying in the air or angles struming their harps. It is an earthquake, something unexpected and unplaned that at the beginning is fierce and strong... but then subsides and when it does you have to figure out how strong you both really are. How deep the roots you have been growing really go. Getting to that point where you know that your hearts have become so entwined that it would impossible to walk away from one another. Becuase that is what love really is. That desire to look each other in the face when worst has come to worst, where that person that is holding your hand is without a doubt the person you want there holding your hand. Its not that breathless moments or the heavy handed words that you try so despreatly to ooze in efforts to convience the other person that you are just as romantic and loving as any fantasy they could ever have. Its coming to a realization that no matter what life could throw at you, no matter what path you could take the person that you can look in the eye and express your love from the words that are not said is the only person that you could ever want there... when you find that feeling. When you can hold your troubles in your hand and then gladly with no hesitation give them up you have found that love.

He wants to hold her.... He wants to feel her in his arms... He wants to know her smell... He wants to know how she feels against his finger tips.... He wants and wants and wants but the things that stand between them might be strong enough to hold them back... Although that barrier could be short lived it is still between them none the less... All he can do is wait... But as he waits she stands in front of him begging for him to hold her.... begs him to put his arms around her... Begs him to know her smell.... begs him to know her so well he knows how she feels under his finger tips...
Two hearts so willing to beat as one but being forced to be apart... How can you love someone before your hearts are allowed to meet...

Wednesday - I get to see her tonight... I have been in such a good mood, good enough that people who I spend a lot of time with during the day of commented on my attitude. I hope that the lunch between me and mom goes well but I am determined to stay honest with her... I don’t know, just a lot going on at the moment and I just have to sit back and wrap my mind around this... First time in a long time I cant see the end of the path but still ok with walking it... We will see, hopefully this is where God wants me..

Monday - OMG, when did I get so behind? Although I agree that there is a lot going on there is still no reason why I am so behind everything.. DO I really have this senior disease... I have really just sent out about twelve emails saying the same thing which is "let me sit down this week and really wrap my head around this issue and I will get back to you before the week is out." Dear God, please give me just a little peace of mind to finish SOME of this stuff... I really need to sit down and deal with some of this stuff, lets pick which night that I wont have time to spare so I can sit down and get ahead of a few of these things...

Friday - I think she is really there... I think that she really cares, but here I stand waiting for her to hear from God what he wants her to do... What he plans for her is much more important than our, what could be, short-lived happiness... In the end I want her to be able to walk the path she was made to walk, if that path is beside mine or not. Come on G whats on your mind...