A Life in Words

i think that my roller coaster of a life could only come from the thoughts that steamroll through. The ups and downs that move through my head about where my life is going, or where it should be, or where it is now always seem to have a spin on where it is. It seems that even when you sit down and try to make it through just one day where you can move on without thinking of the decisions that you make something pops up and puts you in a position to question where you are. But the problem is not that the questioning is the negative, it will always be a good thing to be able to question where you are which allows you to check yourself from time to time. No its the questioning that makes you think, what if the impossible where possible, what if the thing that never could be... could be. you sit and ponder such things until your heart slaps you across the face for committing such a travesty. Making emotions fall back into your lap that you had laid to rest so long ago. Oh to the moments where life came like a soft breeze in the spring air. Where you could laugh and play, live and love like no one was watching you. But cheers to the life where everyday seems to be a battle against the things that can never be beaten. A battle against the same heart and mind that try to get you through the pain but in some trip up of fate putting you back into harms way... I dont pray for salvation, I pray for an escape, an escape from my own heart which seems to bury itself under should of's, could of's, and would of's.