Learn to walk

So there are a few words that are constantly coming to mind.. My heart and my head at the same time are telling me that I should stop and hold back but for some reason this little thing in my throat is wanting to just scream.... I don’t know if it is because I have not been in this seat in so long that the thought just feels so good or if it’s a true blue feeling. I am afraid of something and I don’t know what... More than likely I am afraid because there is nothing else to feel other than freedom... Freedom of the heart is so far from a natural feeling that your mind runs from the thought, which is where I am in so many different paths of my life. Although I have finally graduated and am moving on with my life, got a job fresh out of the gate, and have an amazing girl by my side I still stand here waiting to really show God what I can do. I just wish I had the guts to really stand up and start moving... I hope I can find that grit that I had so long ago to stand up to the shadows soon, I don’t want to loose my place of where I am right now... I like the path, I just don’t like the pace... Learn to walk I guess...