A Life in Words

Oh I hate it when I need to go to my blog so early in the morning. It was a rough morning already, and in all reality nothing really special happened, I just happened to wake up thinking about what I am always thinking about, and lately that subject has been rough. Life will always have its ups and downs, and I cant for the life of me figure out why it is so surprising when the downs are actually downs. For some random reason I expect them to be maybe a minor dip instead of a fall... I was talking to Jesus the other night and the conversation went along the lines of asking him why we go all in with certain situations. Why we risk our hearts in relationships. I literally sat a the feet of my savior and asked him point blank with a perplexed look on my face why do we invest ourselves in our lives... I think if he were to be anyone else I would have gotten a smack across the face. But being the awesome savior that he is he just laughed softly and replied that even though it feels like we are all in, even though it feels like a dead end road, he never planned for any of those moments to be an ending note. He only planned for it to be another section of the path. It comforts me that he can see ahead of me... But it will always be nerve racking to drive blind folded. Maybe today will get better, maybe it wont... The factor that it will depend on will be me... And I would love for it to get better...