A Life in Words

Its like an itch... Something on the part of your body that you can never quite get. There are plenty of times that you get so close you feel the itch go away but somehow it still ends up itching all over again with even more intensity. Its a craving. Knowing that you want something so bad everything else seems to be just a bore when the thought crosses your mind. You feel uninspired and unchallenged due to the fact that your not where you want to be or doing what you want to do. The problem is you don't know exactly where to scratch, you don't know exactly what it is you want you just know that somethings there, somethings missing, you need something more, something else...

And then the moment comes...

A deep longing satisfaction. Like that itch we finally are about to reach, the movie we finished and sat in silence wondering what we'd do differently had the director thought to include us in the narrative too. Its like finding something you never knew you were looking for, true love. But once you have it, you wonder how you lived without it. And you know as intimately as you know the other person that you'd go crazy or never go anywhere again if they were to go away. They are a part of the foundation upon which your identity is built. That's the love we want... The heavy kind. The kind that is strong enough to support us and crucial enough to make us want to die if it ever disappears. It's scary as hell, but we should settle for nothing less.

You may find it online, or at a summer retreat, or randomly on a Tuesday afternoon. Something that may take seconds to unfold and end up being a complete surprise to you where you will never be the same. Those things that are not accepting of our slacking or compromise are usually those things that blindside us and force us to comply. Thank God love is lenient enough to fill our soul, brain, and heart with enough pleasure, sacrifice, and belonging that we happily obey its grip on us.

Because we want it. We want someone to come home to, to share return address labels with, and to look at while dinner is warming and ask, am I crazy? an no matter what they say you'll be content, blissfully content, with the answer because whether you're nuts or not they're there.

With you

In the stuff.

Chase down the thing you're looking for and when you find it go on a great adventure together knowing that its not whether your paths meet up or have similarities but the fact you will be roaming together, always ending up in each others' arms. That is the kid of love your soul was made to have. Do not spend time on anything of cheap imitation. Its just not going to do.