A Life in Words

God.... I need you right now... I need you here so I can wrap my arms around you and just sob for a second or two. I just want to hear your voice, feel your touch as you grip me tight and hold me close. I want to speak with no clear understanding of what I am saying due to the fact that my eyes are pouring onto your shoulders. I want to feel your hands sliding up and down my back trying to comfort me whispering whatever it is that you want to whisper. I want to be able to cry without the fear of someone looking and judging me for why i'm crying or that i'm crying. I want to release these emotions on your chest and let them go. I want to trust you and beg for your love knowing that I already have it but showing you that I cherish it so. God, I want to be OK... I have never wanted to be perfect or even close, I have always wanted to be pointed in the right direction with your hand on my shoulder. God... I need you hear right now... I need your arms around me whispering that its going to be OK... I am not trusting you right now and i'm trying so desperately... Come tonight and wrap your arms around me quick because the devil has been knocking at the door and I dont want him in here anymore...